For my previous blog, had no names, and just numbers making conversations, I understand, it becomes quite confusing... that too the numbers are in ten-thousands, difficult to remember throughout the post.
There are LOGICAL reasons for assigning the numbers. Firstly, as the names weren't used, it surely means that identities of the characters were intended to be hidden. Secondly, I didn't replace the name with another, cuz there was nothing I could co-relate the other names to those characters and if I would have given some random names, I would have been unfair to them.
Moreover, consider, if I would have randomly picked a guy's name sitting in the same bay in office, I sit in, he could have charged me for harassment. I was just scared to use names. So I assigned the characters some numbers, which according to me can be related to the characters.
P.S. Don't break your head on deciphering the numbers, you will end up nowhere.
The N U M B E R S A K E
Teachings
"You are right dude. I am just leaving for office." said 26633, his neighbour."
"with those on your feet?"
26633 didn't understand at once, but then he found the nasty look on 36772's face ridiculing his floaters.
"Don't mind!!! I know your company has no rules on the outfits, but still I think you shouldn't be wearing them to office", continued 36772.
"Oh come on dude. You are not serious. Are you? I like wearing them... (smiling) especially to the office." said 26633.
"Alright... if you please to... so you didn't return home last night."
"I was at one of my friends' place last night, with another of his friends around,(26633 told 36772)and we were not surely on the grounds. {smiles crossed} And different personalities react differently when they are flying high. So there was this guy, 16690, who gets philosophical in such an aura."
"16690 started all kinds of crap(26633 continued...), crap definitely is a super class which has many subclasses..."
"What did he do?" asked 36772.
"Ohhh", 26633 said,"16690 was giving some incidence happened in his life a few days back. This guy was working for IBM when he lastly worked under someone."
"What do you mean by that? He is jobless right now"
"No ra... 16690 now works for himself, he was a web-developer and now runs his own company."
"What's his company's name?", asked 36772.
"You think I was interested in knowing that and that too at the level I was on. He says he makes a lot these days, as he is the only employee of his company"
"So that's good for him, but what was the incidence that had happened?"
"Well, 16690 had been working on a major product for a client, who was charged big bucks for it. And he had been the only one in the organization so he had no software management tool"
"Software Management tool? that's the same thing which logs all the activities done on the code of the project. rite? Which one do you people use in your company?"
(26633 might have thought why is this guy always interested in comparing the tools used in his company with others.)
"Cut that, else I will forget to tell what I was telling you."
36772 nodded blankly.
"So what happened with 16690," continued 26633, "was that his computer on which he had worked for over a month day-in-and-day-out, crashed leaving him with just slag. He was in a situation of starting with scratch."
"Shit! What did he do then?" muzzled 36772.
"He said he had become suicidal and all, but then he resumed his senses, and tried to get most of the data. I don't know whether he lost some data or not, but to show he had a tough time, he told us that he could not recover the whole stuff."
"So??? that wasn't philosophical!!!"
"I know that wasn't. It was just the prelude, dude. The whole night went in just one topic discussion. I couldn't resist giving my ears rest, but I guess it went longer than I can imagine."
"But what was there to discuss?" asked 36772.
"Well 16690's third degree torture had just started. He orated that nature wants everyone to learn things in easy way, our own way, ways we are comfortable in, but if we don't learn it that way, nature makes us learn it the HARD WAY. I am just giving you the essence dude, but the discussion on this had eaten my sleep and night and made me come back to the ground level"
"I can understand and I pity you", sympathised 36772.
"Yes, I mean why on all become so philosophical with these things? And, there is no weight in the crap of nature's HARD WAY of teaching. I couldn't take any more of it, so I slept and started my dream-wagon."
26633 looks at his watch.
"Anyways, I gotta rush to office now", continued 26633, "and you also should get ready for office. BYE"
Two days later was a Friday, 26633 had gone again to his another friend to catch a flight without the air-tickets. He stayed over at his friend's place. And when he was about to leave, the next day, his friend's place. He realised his few things were missing. Someone broke into the house and flicked away 26633's valuable stuff.
Next Monday, when 26633 was rushing for the office in the morning, 36772 asked him, "Where are your floaters, boss?"
26633 said sadly, "They are stolen at my friend's place."
"...if not easy way, Nature makes us learn the HARD WAY", with a-mile-long-smile, 36772 couldn't resist saying.
The Me and the Selves
I had been missing myself all these days, I don't know since when but may be from the time I had been blogging, or from the time I had started to work on a live project, which soon became dead1, or before I became an earning member of my family2, or before I started my graduation, or much before that. I really dont know when but evidently I had been loosing myself, the self I used to admire, the one I used to be proud of, the me I used to call as a person.
It happened with the must of time, through the mist of the thoughts, in the midst of myself. I, many-a-time, think that why I consider myself as singular, when I know I am not one, I am many self, I am the one which has many lookalike, seen just one at a time, with one stream of thought, with one self. But truely its one only for others, I am having all my guises lying deep within me, murmuring constantly to the one the others can see.
Within different parts of time, I have grown many myselves, which are cluttered in my mind, in my solicitude, in my tranquility. I had a scintilla of God in me, and I realised at the same time I was the residence of the Evil too. Both of them had gradually evolved3 and have given me these reflections with various blends.
I might also defend it to the change in the thinking capability of my mind which has given birth to all these ownshooks, but is it truely the creation of my mind solely? I pullulate many questions in my mind giving it a new shape everytime in search of the answer, landing it with a new question and a new self.
These figures have become immortals, a permanent company for me. All of myselves walk on the same legs but follow different paths, all of me see through the same eyes, but see different images, all of us stay in the same mind, minding each others' parts. I want these ghosts to walk out of me, my life, but they will always be there, annoying me at happy times, and making me more sad in the bad times.
I carry my blank face when I want to dump them in the ocean but they bring the smile on my face for no resons, for no good. And then I pray to Him, May the Evil in me always remain!Amen!
1 please don't curse me for it as I used to do, for I overheard someone saying that only 20% of the work we do, releases, on an avg. I don't know how true is this but one thing I am sure of is that I no longer feel guilty for it.back
2 well, though I am saying that I became the earning member of my family. I truely and purely earn for myself. {smiles}back
3 I am sure, the God evolved long before the Evil planned to reside in me. But I was the one who was enlightening the passage for the Evil to dwell in me, thinking the God is unaware of it. I was lured, and if I think hard I had no other options to grow to where I am right now, I had to let the Evil be part of my thoughts, my talks, my actions... my life.back
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